Confession time.

So here goes: Confession Time.

This will be brief** as I have a *zillion* things to do around the house and have no business being on the computer, but alas, that is part of my confession.

I'm really struggling with mommyhood right now. I love my daughter beyond measure, of course, but at 16 months she's getting, well, sassy. I'm a pretty patient person and I get that it's all part of her development, but the kicker is that I'm 8 1/2 weeks pregnant and feel like c.r.a.p. Nausea for most of the day, every day, tired, the whole works. I know it's normal and I feel extremely blessed that God finds me in the least bit worthy enough to carry another precious life and bring it into the world; however, I really wish I didn't have to feel this lousy to do so. And I also wish that I had more energy to deal with my ever-so-spunky toddler. I keep finding myself taking shortcuts or "not having enough time" to do things I need to do around the house. Right now, working full time and being a mommy full time is more than I can handle. I really want to sleep most of the day and when I'm not sleeping all I want to do is waste time in front of the TV, a book, or the computer. I'm getting some help (a cleaning lady to do the heavy scrubbing) since we both work full time and it's a bit unreasonable to think we can do *everything*.

I keep praying to do better, to bear my cross gracefully, and to be thankful for my amazing husband, beautiful and bright daughter, and my developing baby. I guess I'm just not a graceful gestator. Lord, give me strength...

Please pray for me as I meddle through the rest of this trimester....


** I also apologize for misspellings, gramatical errors, etc. I typed quickly.